Quitin Time

So I gave my notice and only have two weeks left. My prayer is that these next two weeks are uneventful other than accomplishing a lot of work. He does not appear to be accepting my resignation. He thinks he is the best employer, blah, blah, blah. So if you get a chance and God lays it on your heart, would you please just pray. Pray that I can conduct myself in a manner that is honoring my Lord. I feel so much anxiety when I am there and so defensive some times things come out of my mouth that should not. I just want to finish the task that I came to do, and get all of his tax information together and be done!

Contentment

So I've decided to be content. I am tired of stressing over how things might have been. The past is behind me. It is time to let go and move on... I have lived in this house for a long time...miserable because of the things that needed done but not having the finances or know how to get it changed. God so blessed with a Mr. Fixit that was so reasonably priced. Things are looking SO much better. All that needs done now is the floors and I think they are manageable. Just got back from Home Depot looking at some flooring. Too exciting. Can't wait to finish it up. And the best part is that it is all done without increasing the house payment. Can't beat that!
So I think that means I can quit the third job. Working so much is really stressing me out. I feel like all I do is work. Here it is almost the end of June and I have only cooked supper once since we returned from our vacation in May. It is really too much. I value the people God has placed in my life more than the money or a new house. So it is time...to relax a while and just be content.

Reflecting,,,,

Aaahhhhh...I love the sound of the waves....the smell of the ocean....the breeze.... I have looked forward to this week with much anticipation. This past year, actually two years, have been tough. But God is faithful and once again HE has shown up. Ask and HE will answer. This week at the beach, I took with me two books, Nightmares Echo and Beauty for Ashes. God spoke to me through both books. I keep letting my past hinder my present. But I am thankful that I am on the road to recovery. Part of the healing is realizing and then with much prayer God will bless. Even as I was reading this week, I came under attack by a previous oppressor in my life. My initial response was the same fear and paralyzing of my brain. I could not even respond but just went into withdrawal. God has blessed me with such wonderful Gigs(girlfriends in God). I called one on the phone and she was in the perfect place to pray with me over the phone. As she prayed, the curtain of fear was lifted and I realized that the enemy was gaining ground with my fear. It was not the appropriate response. God is bigger than my enemy and HE will prevail. In the book, Beauty for Ashes, Joyce Meyer talks about all of the doors we pass through during our period of oppression and how God has to take us back through those same doorways to deliver us from their hold. So I know which door this one is and I want victory, not revenge. As I continued in my other study, God spoke about letting HIM vindicate. So I've given it to HIM and am trusting HIM to deliver and work. His peace is flooding my soul. What a wonderful way to end a vacation...and I still have a three day weekend! Thank you Jesus!

I want to stay here...

So I started this new bible study a week ago with a group of ladies at church. It is a Beth Moore study, Stepping UP. And to quote Beth, "The way up with GOD is DOWN". To explain this, we have been encouraged to find time EVERY DAY to go down on our FACE before God. What an experience! The difference in perspective...who HE is and who I am in HIS sight. What a change! I love JESUS!
I also have a new motto that I want to hang on my wall.....a friend had a baby and she has this painted and hung above her daughter's bed..."I've met my Prince and his name is Daddy" I thought that was pretty cute but during this study we were reminded what a Prince we have in Jesus. I want to paint it and put it there to see every day....I've been searching and searching and my Prince has been there waiting all along.....you see, I've met MY PRINCE....and HIS name is JESUS!

It's time...

We leave Saturday for the annual pilgrimage to the BEACH. I personally can not wait. I think I feel the closest to God there with the sun, sand, and waves. I have a lot to process from this past year and am just looking forward to the God time. I am at such a wonderful place in life right now and I thank GOD for all that HE has done and continues to do for me.
Mother's Day was wonderful. I have so much to be thankful for. We enjoyed family dinner together Saturday night and then Sunday with more family. Shanna and Kylea got me a beautiful necklace with their names and birthstones. We spent time together. Both are doing very well in college! I have been blessed with two beautiful daughters of which I could not be more proud.
Life is so good!

Behind The Scenes

Mom never updates on here, so I feel like this is my second blog. Haha!
-Shanna

Be Careful What You Wish For

Be careful what you wish for
It just might happen you know
For God above loves you so much
And wishes for you to grow

He listens to each prayer you speak
And those hidden in your heart
He wants to bless you with all you seek
That your joy may never depart

Some prayers are granted in pure delight
While others concern Him so
He knows the outcome each will have
And desires your good you know

So be careful what you wish for
Consider with the utmost care
Your purpose should be to glorify Him
The rewards will not compare.